Something I Might Not Deserve

A few weeks ago, I paused when I read the following news headline: “Astronomers have discovered the largest known structure in the universe, a clump of active galactic cores that stretches 4 billion light-years from end to end.”

This discovery evidently made astronomers rethink the size of the cosmos.  It made me think, though, of one of my favorite literary passages and sent me to my reading journal to find this quote from the short story “What Shock Heard” by Pam Houston:

I showed him Andromeda, the galaxy closest to our own. I said, “It’s two hundred million light-years away . . . Doesn’t that make you feel insignificant?”

And he said, “No . . . Like I’ve gotten something I might not deserve.”

That last line seems to me to be an accurate description of awe.

It’s how I felt when the two-tailed swallowtail pictured above let me approach so close to it in my Texas hill country garden after a September rain that I could take its photo without using any “zoom” at all.  It can also accurately describe how I feel today while anticipating the opening of new blooms–seasonal miracles–on the same perennial purple coneflower plants this spring.

coneflower bloom to come

I’m pretty sure it’s how my friend Kate felt when she and her husband spied this great horned owl nesting in the sandy bluff of an arroyo in Baja California.  I know it’s how I felt when Kate showed her to me in late February.  I was moved by the owl’s stillness as she protected her eggs, by her intense awareness of me as I kept my distance and relied on the zoom lens.

great horned owl nesting

Additionally, I was moved by Kate’s generosity and trust in showing me this fiercely gorgeous bird.  She knew that I would “get it.”  And I was thrilled to hear by e-mail that the eggs had hatched into owlets after we left Baja in mid-March.

Being able to share such moments with someone else enriches our own experience.  Knowing we all get the same goosebumps underscores our own joy, validates our own feelings of wonder, and reminds us of the common connections we have.

And the sharing makes me doubly feel as though I’ve gotten something I might not deserve.

Writing Practice:

Describe a time when someone showed you or described to you something that gave you goosebumps.

What gives you the feeling of insignificance?  Does it make you feel as though you’ve received a gift?

3 thoughts on “Something I Might Not Deserve

  1. I better proof read my replies….I meant to say …I love this, it is a feeling I often have when being given a gift of beauty and wonder.

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